I miss the warmth of your gentle hug and the love I felt when my arms were wrapped around you. I miss seeing your beautiful smile each day and hearing the sound of your voice saying my name. I miss hearing you say, “I love you,” and me saying, “I love you” in return. I miss finishing your sentences and being "one step ahead of you" during the day.
I miss saying “Mom” out loud and you always answering me. I miss your words of wisdom (and your instructions). I miss being a family of five instead of four. I miss the look in your eyes that traveled straight to my heart. I miss the gift of you in the life I have embraced from the day I was born. I miss YOU Mom!
I miss sharing my heart with you when I'm having a tough day; there is emptiness there now. I miss you saying…"this is my daughter, Emily” and seeing the look of pride you held with each word that was spoken. I miss cleaning the house, making memories in the kitchen, and running errands with you after we finished school.
I keep looking back on that painful day that I said..."You can go now, Mommy. We will be fine, and we will see you again..."
And then, in that moment.... I close my eyes and feel the warmth of your gentle hug once more and envision me wrapping my arms around you. I see your smile as you say my name and tell me that everything is going to be alright. I also see you dancing and singing with joy. You are so happy and you have no pain anymore... You are have mounted on the eagle and are in our precious Savior's arms.
I miss you so very much, but I know in my heart that you already know and understand each feeling I hold in my heart. That's when a sense of peace and love surrounds me…
The part of me that let you go was the part of me that knew you would be watching over me; that believed there truly was a God and that one day I would walk toward your wide open arms again and hear your sweet voice say,"I love you”...
And in the peace of that moment, angels flutter their wings and leave me…. knowing that I understand…. I am okay! You are always with me in my heart!
I love you so much, Mommy! I miss you each and everyday, but I am going to wait patiently for that day that I get to wrap my arms around you once again and say..."Mom" once more.
I will always be your "Emmylou"
P.S. The rest of the family is doing well and we are adjusting the best we can without you. We have an empty space in our hearts, but we will see you again. I know it... :)